I self injure... many people call me a freak and shun me out of there lives...?
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I know where you are at. Self injuring is a way to deal with pain and hurt. It seems easier to deal with the physical pain of cutting than the emotional pain of your hurt. This IS normal, but try to find someone to talk to. I used to cut myself when I was younger. I had a tough childhood and some really rocky relationships with boyfriends. Cutting felt good. I am married now. I do not cut anymore or think about hurting myself. I have a beautiful baby girl who is 10months old. I spoke to counselors and friends. You may not think so now, but they can be so benificial to your healing. \nMy husband knows of my past and of my cutting. My scars are a reminder of what USED to be. I was really depressed. At times when I look at my scars, I wish I hadnt have taken that razor and sliced my beautiful skin. But I did. I did what I did. I talked to my friends and family about my pain and they accepted it. Your friends/family will come around. They are acting that way towards you now because they don't understand. HELP them understand. REACH OUT to someone. I have never met you but I can tell you that EVERYONE is beautiful and unique in their own way. YOU are OK! If you have a family physician, try talking to them. TEll them you are feeling depressed. They maybe able to prescribe something for the chemical imbalance. It's NOT YOUR FAULT that you are depressed. A great majority of the world is depressed. And go figure with all the crap thats going on in the world today.\n\nRemember....ITS NOT YOUR FAULT...and you are NOT a freak!\nTake care...it WILL get better...
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Registered Nurse here; Your problem is far to complex to address here on Yahoo.  I strongly encourage you to make appointment with mental health professional.  You need major counseling, guidance, support and possibly a medication regimen.  This is a from of self-mutilation.  It is serious, and if you do not get the approiate help, things will only increase in seriousness.  Please make an appointment with a mental health professional, or your private physician, he or she will be able to get you stated in the approiate treatment.  You need not feel you have to mutate and scar your on body.  Something is seriously wrong and you need help.  \nI appreciate the opportunity to address such a sensitive question, and I pray you seek help.
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I have been a cutter since I was 11...I am now 18. I have also been in and out of rehab. You need to take it a day at a time. I just kept telling my self " I am not going to hurt myself today" and if I had to say it over and over and over again, I did.  Try that... if you mess up, dont get upset, just keep going.. So what if you mess up, just keep trying not to do it...its not the end of the world if you slip up. I also paint...I find that able to get some of my emotions out. I havent  cut in maybe 1 month...and you know what treat yourself to things and do things for yourself since you deserve them. Someone told me that you have to be selfish and focus on yourself in order to get better. I hope what I've said helps. If you belong to a church you might want to get involved in group with people your age. You might be suprised I did that, and I found that people were going through the same things I was. \nYou can email me if you want to talk. \nSavedbygrace2_8@yahoo.com
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i used to be like that but i started harming myself... i dont say go buy a razor and slash your wrist i am informing you that crying over little things is better then giving yourself a reason to cry... just talk to people and blink back tears thats all i know..
484528
physical abilites do not matter atall.i know u miss all that like hell..but u hav to accept lfie the way it is.life isnt candyland and most of including me learnt thatthe hard way. the only thing u can do is turn ur weakness into ur strength. Never lose hope in urslef.just think of it..u have so mnay people who r ready to help u out, u have someone who can really pay for al ur medical treatmenst, i dont know much about u, but everyone has something thats a boon for them, in case talking will make u feel better feel free to talk to me anytime okay?keep ur chin up ^_^
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there is someone for you. as soon as you accept yourself that is when others will. i have a cousin that is very heavy and she had the same problem until she stopped caring so much what others thought and she was just herself and had fun. if you do this then people will see the real you and not your weight. i am heavy and have many friends and a bf. you are capable of it
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You need to talk to your surgeon or attending physician. There are some activities that they will recommend that you do not participate in for a specific amount of time due to the possibility of re-injury. You're still in the recovery phase and while you shouldn't "sit home and feel sorry for yourself" patience really is a virtue. You're still healing.\n\nGood luck and glad to hear that you're doing well!
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dude i have the same problem and share your pain. i use to cut myself, but then it seemed so stupid so please dont do that.what really works for me is talking about my problems with my mom,sister,cousin or a really trustful friend, because they dont judge me based on what i say,do or feel.they will try to help you out as much as they can and understand what youre going through and give you advice. you dont need therapy to figure out whats wrong and waste all that $$ when you can talk to someone at home for free :)\nmusic=escape from reality
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Well sweety it sounds like your trying to please everyone but yourself.  You need to concentrate on you and what  you want for yourself.  And forget everyone esle if they cant bring up your spirits, and dont need that, and its a waste of time and too much stress on your body.  Try not to worry about everyone else try just looking in the mirror and saying hey Im cool, Im special and if people dont see that then they arent worth your tears, or heart aches.  You cant get back the time you lose when you worry or trying to make everyone else happy , do it for yourself and see if that makes a difference.
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I haven't noticed that at all.  \n\nUnless I'm some sort of a freak and don't know it and I think everyone else is nuts when its really me.\n\nNah, no way.
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i was also into self mutilation and i used to cut myslef too.  i also have my reasons to why i did it. best way i think is to talk to someone you are close to. you are too young for this type of thing.
524546
People call themselves names for several different reasons. Very smart person! There is ALOT of wicked out there, Satan is trying to pull on us every day! People generally do this because of low self esteem, they don't feel any better about themselves, or they do it in front of someone hoping they will tell them different, to get some positive feedback about themselves, that the are truly worthy. If you have a friend like this , they are HIGH maintanence, but DON'T Give UP! Be strong for them if you can! You sound like a caring person and that is just what this person needs, it sounds like this person may have been put down alot in their lives, and this is what is left "after the dust settled". It's sad, but hold tight! YOU may be able to make a difference, point out their GOOD points and why, they may be an injured person, and I am speaking from experience from my heart. You cared enough to write in, God Bless You, you are a caring person, remember that and stick to this person, This made me cry, I am one of those people, I wish I had a friend like you!
680766
That's sad & dangerous.. Sounds like you need a hobby; not a boyfriend. You need to respect yourself a little more before you victimize yourself.
167085
The people around you do not understand you or anything about mental issues. I can reassure you that it is not a way to get attention. Your best bet is to find a counselor, therapist, or psychiatrist because I promiss you they will understand and have the tools to help you stop. Even if you don't have insurance most states have community mental health programs that can get you help for free. I am sorry you are feeling such pain and I hope you can get to someone who can show you healthy ways to cope and resolve some of the bad feeling you have inside you. Good luck.
854482
I'm not a cutter but I think the best thing for you, is to maybe try talking to someone about this. You say you do that to feel normal, but just because a lot of people do that, doesn't mean it's normal. If you don't want to talk to anyone about that, try just stopping cold turkey. Throw away all your razors, don't resort to any other means of self harm. Find a hobby and be constructive!
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Your family sucks!  You have a low self esteem.  Probably broke, hugh?  You should go to a recreational center or church..and talk w/someone about finding a mentor..evade difficult persons.  They are hurting and find satisfaction with your discomfort!  There is hope..and it is not where you are buddy!
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depends on what you mean by "freak." yes, this is an unusual fetish that most people find distasteful, weird and hard to understand. however, you are far from alone. all you have to do is google "amputee fetish" and you'll see how not alone you are. so, shrug, i guess. \n\ni wouldn't share this information with most people. it's not like being gay, you know. embrace your inner freak.